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Oh Emma, thank you for sharing this new information with us so bravely. I am so glad that things seem to be falling into place and you are having realisations about various things. I also respect deeply the way that you are acting on this news in such an embodied and wholehearted way. Sending love to you xx

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Thank you for reading. Thank you for seeing me ❤️

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This is powerful. This is inspiring. No more masking. I love that you are honouring your true self and treading a new creative path. I love that you are unboxing yourself. I feel too many women on here working themselves too tightly, keeping their writing within a specific ‘thing.’ Embrace the messy. Embrace the journey. Embrace creativity and all its whims. Embrace you! I look forward to what’s to come x

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I am embracing all of it, thank you for your encouragement, it means so much.

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I think this is such a smart move. So glad you're getting to hear that inner voice and actually take action based on her wisdom! Sending hugs as you absorb everything. XO

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Me too, me too! Thank you ❤️

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So beautiful and important, thank you for sharing! Wishing you peace and freedom as you explore what works for you in this space and beyond.

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Thank you so much for your kind words.

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Oooof Emma I have so much I want to write here but I do not have the capacity to type it all out. I SEE you for your beautiful whole self and I also resonate with A LOT of what you have written here and see myself through your words. Thank you for your true expression. Xxxxxx

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When you have capacity, I would love to hear it, in a voice note maybe?! Thank you for seeing me, I appreciate your friendship.

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Yes I was thinking I would love to voice note you about this all. I hope this week might provide me with some space. This last week has been intense with both girls all week!! Xx

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Oh right, kiddos are on some sort of break this past week! Absolutely no rush.

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I too am autistic and have CPTSD. I started unmasking a year ago, it’s been tough. But I’ve made more progress unmasked than I ever thought possible. Accepting who I am and how my brain works has allowed me to learn to enjoy things because I’m not forcing myself to enjoy them the way neurotypicals do.

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Oh Emma, I can't tell you how much I relate to this. I could have written every word! Particularly the way the knowledge suddenly landed and then everything makes sense. It's terrifying and confusing and comforting and liberating all at the same time. I'm so happy you have this understanding now and that you're using it to find what truly works for you instead of trying to fit yourself into someone else's definitions or expectations. Sending you so much solidarity, and I am always happy to chat if you need a sounding board or anything else as you process all this. xx

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You are doing exactly what you need to do right now. 👏🏻👏🏻! Look after what you need and want. Nobody else. You. It will take time to figure that out and change will be a huge part of that process. Life is constant change. That might be scary but it is incredibly feeing as well :). All the best to you on this journey and thank you for being so open and honest about all that you think and feel.🩷

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Thank you for sharing this Emma. I can’t help but feel though that diagnosis later in life is just a form of embodied acceptance. If only we were able to truly accept ourselves as we are wouldn’t it be exactly what a diagnosis gives us? Just wanted to share what came up for me as I read.

I used to work in neurodiversity and what I saw was diagnosis for adults helped heaps because of acceptance but for kids it was the opposite as it then results in judgement of self and non acceptance. X

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