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Katie Gresham's avatar

My childhood was different than yours, but I still saw some of myself in the controlling behavior. Early on in my life as SAHM, I realized if I controlled the days schedule or activities I was more able to cope with it all. I based when we went outside or whether we went to a playground or other social event on my energy level. Some of it still seems practical—we tend to go out in mornings in summer and in afternoons in winter because I knew I would be less grumpy outside of the temperatures were reasonable. Sometimes I said/say no to my kids simply because the thought of me having to pick up the mess resulting from what they are asking to do feels like too much. As they’ve grown, it’s pitted their needs against mine sometimes. I still haven’t completely solved it. I’ve started to let go, realizing that living with older kids is more like living with roommates—people with different interests and lives under one roof. But I still say no sometimes just because I think I’ll be inconvenienced and I’m too low energy. I still bristle when I think they’re taking too long to do what I asked (like put on outdoor clothes). I think it’s part of most people’s parenthoods— we go from controlling as much as we can in the name of safety and sanity and then as they grow we have to adapt to letting go of a bit more over and over. I’m not sure it will ever feel easy.

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Klara.'s avatar

Wow, this resonated so much, will come back and read this again when I have energy to make a longer comment, you touches in so much! ❤️🙏

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